I lost my best friend
My mud brother and my blood brother, all in one

Pain by Yungeen Ace

My comments: In a 2018 drive-by shooting, Ace got shot eight times and lost two close friends and his brother. In this song he processes his PTSD and survivor's guilt.

They ask me if I'm okay

Ain't shit okay

I been hurtin' my whole life

I lost my best friend

My mud brother

And my blood brother

All in one

How can I heal all this pain when I'm constantly hurt

This why I hope for the best but I prepare for the worst

Feel like my whole life is hell I tend to go through the most

I been trapped up in the dark and I don't know where to go

What you know bout pain

Tired of going through all this pain

What you know bout pain (what you know, what you know)

Tired of holding all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

What you know bout pain (what you know about pain)

Tired of going through all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

What you know bout pain (what you know about this pain)

Tired of holding all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

Started back when I was younger, beaten on child abuse

I fell victim to the streets in and out the rent was due

In and out of sticky situations

Back and forth in altercations

And I lost my life to these streets

I lost three brothers

What the hell imma tell they mamas

I tend to fault myself sometimes like how the fuck I get caught slippin'

And why I wasn't on my pivot

Like am I the reason why they missing

Lookin around and there's blood everywhere

It's tears fallin but it's blood every tear

Lookin around and there's blood everywhere

It's tears fallin but it's blood every tear

I cannot heal all this pain when I'm constantly hurt

This why I hope for the best but I prepare for the worst

Feel like my whole life is hell I tend to go through the most

I been trapped up in the dark and I don't know where to go

What you know bout pain

Tired of going through all this pain

What you know bout pain (what you know, what you know)

Tired of holding all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

What you know bout pain (what you know about pain)

Tired of going through all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

What you know bout pain (what you know about this pain)

Tired of holding all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

See I was lost tryna find me, like how the fuck I lose myself

I'm surrounded by the fakes see they only love they selves

In this world you play for keeps, every man for themselves

How the fuck you gon' be loyal to me when you ain't loyal to yourself

Whole lot up on my mind can I vent sometime

Seems like I always lose but can I win sometime

I been trynna keep my distance, everybody say I'm actin' different

I don't give a fuck bitch, can you feel the pain I'm feeling?

Going through the storm can you feel the rain it's hittin'

Whole life a living hell imagine the life I'm livin'

So much shit up on the line that I sacrifice

I'm tired of cryin' why do we all gotta die

I cannot heal all this pain when I'm constantly hurt

This why I hope for the best but I prepare for the worst

Feel like my whole life is hell I tend to go through the most

I been trapped up in the dark and I don't know where to go

What you know bout pain

Tired of going through all this pain

What you know bout pain (what you know, what you know)

Tired of holding all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

What you know bout pain (what you know about pain)

Tired of going through all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)

What you know bout pain (what you know about this pain)

Tired of holding all this pain (I'm tired of holding all this pain)